My life feels like a whirlwind lately, I’m retired, have no real demands on my time, but I have stuff to do every day, all the time. Three months ago I was bemoaning my life, my boredom, my lack of enthusiasm, my general malaise and depression. I believe though, that now I’m really living, and that’s why it seems that there is always too much to do, so much to accomplish. I tell you though, I love having a dream for my life again, a goal that I can work for and expect to achieve it.
I’m still learning, as I will be forever, about how the Law of Attraction works in my life. I still have difficulty with old ways of thinking and feeling about myself. I still have the “shoulds.” You know, “I should do this,” or, “I need to take care of that.” I find myself feeling guilty and then chastising myself for not rabidly chasing my dream. I forget that each step I take in learning about myself and the Law of Attraction, each step I take in learning how to write well, and get a book written, IS what I “should” be doing. I deserve to enjoy the ride and do other things that I enjoy also. I’ve spent so many years telling myself that I don’t deserve happiness that telling me that I do is almost like speaking a foreign language to myself.
I’m still constantly amazed by how the LoA is working, and how I’ve discovered that it’s always working. Little things happen now that I recognize as manifestations of the Law. Ever since I saw The Secret, I keep seeing references to the Law of Attraction, in emails, Facebook posts, those little inspirational messages that folks post. Is it coincidence? Of course not. I am attracting these constant reminders that the Law is out there, and it’s working. You know how when you first learn a new word, and it keeps coming up when you’ve never noticed it before? That’s the Law of Attraction. I’ve had some concerns about money this month. Instead of worrying, I’ve freed my mind to accept that all will be positive. And sure enough, small things pop up, and all is well.
I have to say though, that I’m somewhat disappointed in the huge industry that seems to have been spawned by people becoming aware of The Secret, and the LoA. Most of it seems to revolve around making money, and while I certainly want to do that, money is not, and never will be the “be all and end all” of my existence. I can see where many folks are realizing their dreams of financial success by selling lessons or coaching on how to get rich with the Law of Attraction. I guess it’s to be expected, but still, if I have to spend money for someone to teach me the “secrets” of how to use the LoA, then the Law isn’t quite what it’s cracked up to be. I know that isn’t true though, so I feel that folks who maybe don’t understand the Law are being taken advantage of.
I am working toward realizing my dream of writing and having published a best selling history book. The actual finished product is a long way off, years in fact. That’s okay though. I recognize that, I’m learning what is needed to make it happen, and I’m DOING what is needed to make it happen. There are many hurdles that I will have to leap, but leap I shall, and the ride is just beginning!