Keeping Up

I haven’t written anything here for almost a week, but the truth is, I’ve just been too busy! I’m also doing the Writing 101 assignments, (well, most of them) and with my hectic social life and learning about my new found way of life, so for a retired guy, I’m really working.

I also started volunteer work at the local food pantry/soup kitchen, and that’s going to occupy some time too. I’ve only been there once so far, and doctor’s appointments will keep me away this week, but I think I’ll enjoy the work.

My life feels as if it’s right where it’s supposed to be at this point, but I’m getting impatient at times. I know realistically that I won’t be rich next week, or have my driver’s license back, or a new car. In order to attract these things though, I have to believe and act as if I already have them. So I guess I’m choosing to ride my bike instead of drive because it’s the healthy choice, and I have a fitness goal to meet too.

I listened to a really good visualization lesson today, the gist of which is to celebrate and appreciate that other people have the things that I want, even if I don’t have them yet. Because, if other folks have whatever it is I want, then that’s just proof that it’s there for me too. If it’s possible for someone else, it’s possible for me. Makes sense, no?


Life is a whirlwind!

My life feels like a whirlwind lately, I’m retired, have no real demands on my time, but I have stuff to do every day, all the time. Three months ago I was bemoaning my life, my boredom, my lack of enthusiasm, my general malaise and depression. I believe though, that now I’m really living, and that’s why it seems that there is always too much to do, so much to accomplish. I tell you though, I love having a dream for my life again, a goal that I can work for and expect to achieve it.

I’m still learning, as I will be forever, about how the Law of Attraction works in my life. I still have difficulty with old ways of thinking and feeling about myself. I still have the “shoulds.” You know, “I should do this,” or, “I need to take care of that.” I find myself feeling guilty and then chastising myself for not rabidly chasing my dream. I forget that each step I take in learning about myself and the Law of Attraction, each step I take in learning how to write well, and get a book written, IS what I “should” be doing. I deserve to enjoy the ride and do other things that I enjoy also. I’ve spent so many years telling myself that I don’t deserve happiness that telling me that I do is almost like speaking a foreign language to myself.

I’m still constantly amazed by how the LoA is working, and how I’ve discovered that it’s always working. Little things happen now that I recognize as manifestations of the Law. Ever since I saw The Secret, I keep seeing references to the Law of Attraction, in emails, Facebook posts, those little inspirational messages that folks post. Is it coincidence? Of course not. I am attracting these constant reminders that the Law is out there, and it’s working. You know how when you first learn a new word, and it keeps coming up when you’ve never noticed it before? That’s the Law of Attraction. I’ve had some concerns about money this month. Instead of worrying, I’ve freed my mind to accept that all will be positive. And sure enough, small things pop up, and all is well.

I have to say though, that I’m somewhat disappointed in the huge industry that seems to have been spawned by people becoming aware of The Secret, and the LoA. Most of it seems to revolve around making money, and while I certainly want to do that, money is not, and never will be the “be all and end all” of my existence. I can see where many folks are realizing their dreams of financial success by selling lessons or coaching on how to get rich with the Law of Attraction. I guess it’s to be expected, but still, if I have to spend money for someone to teach me the “secrets” of how to use the LoA, then the Law isn’t quite what it’s cracked up to be. I know that isn’t true though, so I feel that folks who maybe don’t understand the Law are being taken advantage of.

I am working toward realizing my dream of writing and having published a best selling history book. The actual finished product is a long way off, years in fact. That’s okay though. I recognize that, I’m learning what is needed to make it happen, and I’m DOING what is needed to make it happen. There are many hurdles that I will have to leap, but leap I shall, and the ride is just beginning!

I’m still workin’ it!

Every day I learn more about so many things. I’m learning how to write. I’m learning how to enjoy my life. I’m learning what life really means, what it’s for, why I’m here and what I have to do while I’m here.

I’m grateful for so many things. Life has given me so many blessings, and I’ve always known that, but it’s always been in the back of my mind. There was always a “but” to my expressions of gratitude. Never before have I been able to just be. And be glad that I am.

I went to an interview today at a community service organization that runs charitable programs for folks. They operate a free lunch program, a food bank, they supply clothes and baby supplies for people who are in need, they even help with evictions and utility shut offs if someone can’t pay their bill. I’m going to do some volunteer work there. I’m going to start in the food pantry and help with unloading trucks, inventory, stocking shelves, that kind of stuff.

I knew I needed to do something like this, but I’ve been resisting it. I’m not really sure why, except maybe that it was outside of my “comfort zone.” Now that I’ve made the commitment, I’m looking forward to it. Besides, my intuition has been telling me that I’ll attract something good if I do this. Maybe I’ll meet a person who’ll be a significant help with my goals, or maybe I’ll make some money. Who knows? The Universe knows. It knows what I want, and it’s telling me to get involved with volunteer work at this place. My job is to just do it.

Even though I have a whole new outlook and attitude on life, old thought patterns and feelings are hard to shake. It’s also difficult to live in the concept that I can’t resist what I don’t want in my life. I must ask for, believe that I will receive, and then accept what I want for my life. Each day brings new lessons for me though. It’s kind of exciting having the knowledge that my life is only going to get better and better, better than I would ever have thought possible. In fact, it already is. I love being able to simply wake up and look forward to what each new dawn brings. There was a time, a lifetime ago, but not so long in real time, that I used to wake up and regret that I hadn’t died in my sleep. My happiness and gratitude for waking each day has turned 180*. I love it.

Writing is tough!

Since I started blogging, I’ve also started learning so much about how to blog, and how to work the site so that people see my efforts, that it’s quite mind boggling. We fifty something who didn’t grow up writing programs and doing other ethereal computer “stuff” have a hard time figuring it all out.

WordPress is having a writers workshop of sorts called, aptly enough, “Writing 101.” Each day a topic is presented, and each topic has a twist to include in the assignment. I never realized how so many people could have different ideas on how to write about each topic. Well, that’s not quite right either. I know everyone will have their own way of writing the assignments, but I guess I mean I haven’t ever been exposed to so many folks writing about the same thing that I was, while they’re actually writing about their own conception of it.

I think this is necessary for me to sharpen my skills, and prepare for the writing that will be required for my book. I’ve felt like I’m slacking off some in recent days, but as I write my assignments, and my blog, I realize that this is all practice for the work that lays ahead. So, I’m really right where I need to be, and it’s all practice, practice, practice…

Now I have to go look in the dictionary and find out whether my use of “lays” was correct, or if it should have been “lies.” I really haven’t a clue. That needs correcting!